Dec. 22, 2016
Me - I hate you.
EF - You don't hate me. you love me. You hate to see me go. I am your excuse for hating yourself.
Me - I can hate myself perfectly well without you, thanks.
EF - But I make you feel better.
Me - No, you don't! I hate you!
EF - You love me.
Me - That's ridiculous. Why should I love you?
EF - Because when you get skinny, you start to feel like a child, insecure, open to abuse and self-doubt, easily violated, vulnerable.
Me - I can get over those feelings without you.
EF - Then do it. I will go away if I'm not helping you anymore. I'll find somebody else to prey on.
Me - Then goodbye. I am saying goodbye to you, Extra Fat. I renounce you, EF. I am changing my diet habits to lose you.
EF - I will not miss you at all. There are so many others to prey on, who need my reassurance more than you do.
Me - Then goodbye, EF. I am not worried about you anymore. you can go where you like. I will enjoy watching you slip off.
EF - Sniff, I'll miss you.
Me - Like a tiger misses a mouse it has eaten. What do you know of emotions? All you know is lard. I renounce you, lard. you are ugly, and i don't want you to be part of me. I stand apart from you, EF, and recognize who I am.
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Dec. 27, 2016
Me - Extra Fat, I really want to lose you. But I don't care too much either way anymore.
EF - Really?
Me - No, I'm lying. I do care. I want you gone.
EF - But it's hard to lose me, isn't it?
Me - Yes, but I feel alright with or without you, I really do.
EF - Then I can't help you at all. I thought you needed me.
Me - No, I don't need you at all. I can diet you away.
EF - I wish you wouldn't. I've grown attached to you.
Me - Then detach yourself! Go away!!
EF - It's easier said than done.
Me - Alright, but I'll do it anyway. Begone, EF, begone!
EF - I think I'll take a little nap now....
Me - Sleep tight, EF. Don't come back.
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Me - I hate you.
EF - You don't hate me. you love me. You hate to see me go. I am your excuse for hating yourself.
Me - I can hate myself perfectly well without you, thanks.
EF - But I make you feel better.
Me - No, you don't! I hate you!
EF - You love me.
Me - That's ridiculous. Why should I love you?
EF - Because when you get skinny, you start to feel like a child, insecure, open to abuse and self-doubt, easily violated, vulnerable.
Me - I can get over those feelings without you.
EF - Then do it. I will go away if I'm not helping you anymore. I'll find somebody else to prey on.
Me - Then goodbye. I am saying goodbye to you, Extra Fat. I renounce you, EF. I am changing my diet habits to lose you.
EF - I will not miss you at all. There are so many others to prey on, who need my reassurance more than you do.
Me - Then goodbye, EF. I am not worried about you anymore. you can go where you like. I will enjoy watching you slip off.
EF - Sniff, I'll miss you.
Me - Like a tiger misses a mouse it has eaten. What do you know of emotions? All you know is lard. I renounce you, lard. you are ugly, and i don't want you to be part of me. I stand apart from you, EF, and recognize who I am.
***
Dec. 27, 2016
Me - Extra Fat, I really want to lose you. But I don't care too much either way anymore.
EF - Really?
Me - No, I'm lying. I do care. I want you gone.
EF - But it's hard to lose me, isn't it?
Me - Yes, but I feel alright with or without you, I really do.
EF - Then I can't help you at all. I thought you needed me.
Me - No, I don't need you at all. I can diet you away.
EF - I wish you wouldn't. I've grown attached to you.
Me - Then detach yourself! Go away!!
EF - It's easier said than done.
Me - Alright, but I'll do it anyway. Begone, EF, begone!
EF - I think I'll take a little nap now....
Me - Sleep tight, EF. Don't come back.
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